Change

I changed a lot recently. I used to be a silent and isolated foreign student. Now I dived into social life and sports. The changes began during the summer.
When I was stressed out by the school and job hunting, I thought I was ripped off the right to have fun. I thought I had a responsibility to be success-- to get into a good school or find a good job. Since I failed, I should be guilty and shameful. I should have no right to be happy. This kind of thoughts were like gray clouds floating over my head.
How wrong I was! Why I let smiles went away from my face? Why I put myself into a mental jail? Those thought--the fear to fail--did not help me but impede my free thoughts. I was cheated by my eyes and could not see the unlimited possibilities I have. I am a bright, beautiful and smart girl. I can go anywhere I wanna go, I can do whatever can be done. And I am the one who can define myself.